Large Task

Ever face a task that has become so large because you haven't done it in a while?  So you put it off because you don't feel like confronting it?  But the more you wait, the larger it becomes?  So you put it off even more?

Then you reach a point where you can't put it off anymore?

I haven't had a serious talk with God in a really long time (about a month), and it's really about time.  It's not even anything specific or especially bad or important I need to pray about, it's just that... there are so many things that need to be addressed. But I know it's always the first step to getting my life together.

In the past month I have not really invited Him to aspects of my life.  I was too preoccupied by work or petty concerns, too exhausted physically and mentally, or trying too hard to enjoy myself amongst people who did not share my values to be genuinely be in His presence.  Now that I am away from all that, with more time to myself than I know how to handle, having to decide how to spend every minute of my day instead of following an unavoidable schedule laid out for me, I find myself failing at bringing forth meaning and light from the hours and days on my own.  I need guidance badly.

Here I go.