Pattern in Record

I've realized what the gaps in my journal or blog indicate.  Either something too happy is going on, or something too sad is going on.  In the former case, maybe I am subconsciously trying to ignore that the days are passing.  In the latter case, I am (consciously) denying all of the events that are happening... as if keeping a written record of them will make them more real.

I haven't written in my journal for a couple of months, I think, and a big reason I don't feel like touching it right now is that I can't possibly update my life in less than an hour.  It's been too long.

Anyway, 80's Korean music makes me melt.  This hits me today:

우리에겐 내일이 있고
또 만남이 이루어질 그 날까지
서글퍼 하지는 말아요
또 다시 아침이 올텐데
서로를 위해 기도하며 살아요

기억하고 싶을 거예요
나를 바라보던 그대 고운 얼굴
기억하고 싶을 거예요
내가 당신의 가슴에 심어놓은
사랑노래 사랑노래 사랑노래
우리에겐 내일이 있고
또 만남이 이루어질 그 날까지 안녕

"사랑노래" - 해바라기