It's Not You, It's Me / Denver?!

"And he said, 'It's not you, it's me...'"  I remember the very first time I heard that phrase.  In some TV show or movie.  Probably in middle school.  I had to think a bit about what it meant and came to a conclusion along the lines of, "Oh I get it.  What a catchy way to say something."

Little did I know that I would use that phrase many times without ever saying the exact words, and that others would say that to me as well.  Little did I know just what a downer it is when you have to be in one of those situations.

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On a completely unrelated note, today I got a summer internship offer to work in Colorado.  Unfortunately it will be an office job, but geology-related, of course.  Just the thought of having my own place and living in Denver for a whole summer makes me willing to do almost anything!  (Colorado is my favorite state I've ever been to.)  In a way this is kind of an unbelievable dream-come-true.  The only thing is, for whatever reason, I had strong reservations about applying for the position for much of the process.  But now, after talking to my would-be boss, the position actually sounds cool and worthwhile.  I want to make sure before accepting that I am not primarily driven by the pay.  Have an honest heart-to-heart with myself.  I don't think I am.  But such a dramatic change in my attitude makes me want to double-check.

Getting offered a real internship with a real (huge) company for the first time does make me feel great.  But I have to remember to be thankful and not take credit for myself.  I've been given an incredible amount of support from my family and school, and I wouldn't be able to do anything without them.  (And I would like to thank my manager, and my husband who is watching at home...)  Also, God is trying to do something cool with my life, and I am faithful in that.  More importantly, I need to focus on grad school applications.  I think I have successfully cleared away all obstacles -- petty drama, overwhelming schoolwork, summer applications (!), excessive social activities -- now I've got no excuse!